Fearlessness

For Valentine’s Day, my girlfriend bought me a necklace that is both very simple and powerful in its message. It simply states FEARLESSNESS. There is something about this necklace that emanates a certain strength when I’m wearing it. For example, when I was being trained at something new at work and I got nervous (typical of me), I found myself unconsciously stroking the necklace with my thumb and feeling the engraved word…FEARLESSNESS.

I’m definitely not fearless. I never have been. I’ve never been edgy or daring. I’ve always stayed inside the box, so to speak, and taking chances has never been a strong point of my personality. I like consistency and routine. However, lately I find myself wanting to break free from that particular mold. I find myself wanting to do different things and not be so confined by my fear. I find myself wanting to experience pure FEARLESSNESS.

However, it seems that want is struck down by my belief that it is just too late. Perhaps I’ve been living this way for so long that I cannot change. I cannot step out from that box. Maybe it’s too late for me to fly. I don’t want to believe that, but the negative part of my brain always tends to override the positive, hence why I often fail before I even try.

It’s a vicious cycle, really. But tonight, there’s a small part of me that truly believes it’s not too late. There’s a small part of me that believes I can still change, I can still grow, I can still fly.

FEARLESSNESS.